Conscience

Life's definately unpredictable especially when you have friends who always cock things up, another word, Irresponsible.

Haha, i've been talking and talking about responsibilty in my recent entries. Sorry, but I just can't help it. Irresponsibility really does irritates people.

Fuck those who don't honor their words. Fuck those fucking b**tards who screwed up other ppl's lifes. Fuck those who caused quarrels between hubbie and me.

Thanks to them for the slpless night yesterday. Not all the credits go to them la, thanks my PSP too.

Psp-ed till ard 4 plus in the morning. Then hubbie woke up. And hurting things followed. We quarrelled. Actually its my fault la. Sigh. And i apologised. And hubbie texted me this "Let us learn from every quarrels, and be stronger towards our future." Thanks hubbie.

Went down to buy breakfast together. And I only get to slp ard 7 plus.

Then woke up at 11 plus, dam shag. Only slp for less than 4 hours. Fish!

Enough of these sickening shit people la. Make my blood boil when i think of it.

Tele-chatted with one of my friend last night. Have been feeling lost with something. Something had been bothering me for quite awhile. Talked with hubbie about it also, but hubbie don't know what I should do too. So i called him.

(I think this word "tele-chatted" does not exist. Lols. But i think tele-chatted is short and clear rather than I chatted with xxx over the phone. So fuck care if its proper english, or singlish or dono wad lish la)

Well i felt that some of his words were very true. And maybe his method works the best. I'm still deciding on what I should do. I dono if I can remain "act like dono anything" for how long. Doing things against own conscience, is not my style. I will feel bad about it. And it will bother me for quite awhile.

I think for now, I have to continue "acting" ba. At times, truth hurts and lie can ease pain. I think that person will live more happier in that pool of lies.

And sometime its hard for a 3rd party to interfere, a lesson learned on one's own is twice as strong as a lesson told. My friend is right. Let him fall and hurt himself, only from pain he will be able to learn from his mistake.

It would be better if he come to his own realization about it and does it on his own...

Hope he will learn to treasure the current things he have , not wait till he lost everything then it will be too late to regret.