Yippy! Got the result for my last subject. HRM. And I got A... Wahaha.. 3 As, 1B and 1C -.-

Getting all results which means I have to be back to school soon! But I am fuckin lazy now. How?????

Slacking too much at home is bad and unhealthy, causing myself to become lazier and lazier. Reluctant to apply for the coming May intake, thinking of forwarding it to Aug. I worry that I will start finding excuses to skip classes when school begin. The course I am taking will be a part time one, so meaning most classes will be held in the evening i suppose. I want to go for full time but there issn't any full time for this course in my school. Fuck.

Considering of switching to another school, one of the best choices so far is SHRI but the place is fuckin far. Its over at Tekka Mall, near Bugis. Fuck. I rather travel to Bukit Merah instead of town. So i think I would still be sticking to my current one.

There will be 10 modules and one project, MY GODDDD! Sigh...

And fuck. I just called school, for the coming may intake, next monday will be my first class. Wah lau. Wah lau!

Anyway just filled up the application and emailed back to the admin officer le. So haiz, next week, class start liao.

Enough of my boring school stuff... here's some of Lilkayden's recent pics to share.

LilKayden and daddy enjoying animal ride at IMM. You can see how happy they are just by looking at these pictures.

Then followed by LilKayden with his grandma... haha.. Oink oink

And of cos.. LilKayden with his mummy... but no animal ride T_T

Totally worn out! Fever and bad flu for two days. The taste of the medicines sucks to the max. Especially the flu medicine. The taste is so fuckin bitter, and the bitter taste will still stay in your mouth and throat for hours. No appetite to eat at all, cos everything taste so terrible.

Hubbie sick too! Think I've had spread virus to him. Luckily he is just having slight cough and flu. No fever.

Darling Kayden is back to his normal behaviour, jumping, yelling, laughing, climbing up and down... Felt so glad seeing him back to his usual self. The few nights at hospital were simply hell.

My classmate msned me saying the result for accounting and marketing are out. She told me she failed all except econ and she said she's not going to take the re-exam as her family can't support her financially anymore. She has to go back to work first. Pity.... Spent almost 1 year and yet did not manage to get the cert. Sigh.

As for me, hmm quite contented with my result. B for accounting and A for my marketing paper. Hee. As for my business communication, i got fuckin C. As wad i was told to study did not come out in the exam, fuck. Ok ok i should not push blame to others, lecturers are just helping us by giving us tips but doesn't mean those tips will definately be out in exams. Its my own fault, i shouldn't take short cut. Luckily the letter writting push my marks up, else i think i would be getting either D or F for this paper liao.

Now waiting for my Human Resource result then i can apply for my new course already. For my HR paper, i am confident i should be able to get A or B. Cos i really studied very hard for this paper.

Ok, my boy's not happy liao. Off to coax him to slp. Bye peeps!

Home Sweet Home

Good news :

Lilkayden's discharged from hospital, and now home sweet home.

Haha.

Bad news :

Lilkayden's mummy down with fever, flu and cough. Sigh.

Yes! As like wad daddy said, Lilkayden can discharge soon!

He had been drinking well on soy milk since last night and if he have no problem with his porriage lunch later, he can discharge this evening or latest tmr noon.

Poor daddy... looked after him for almost the whole of last night, i was so useless. Haiz Down with slight fever and cough. Hubbie looked weak too. Since lilkayden admitted, we didn't really slp much, especially at night we took turns to look after him.

Nurse removed his drip le, now we can bring him go walk around in hospital. There's a playroom near his ward but we can't enter cos I am having cough. And i am also afraid that lilkayden might vomit anytime. Sadded.

Ok stopping here, hope that he can discharge tonight, so he can go back slp well in his own bed. Everyone in the family miss him alot alot...

Kayden JIA YOU!

Poor lilkayden

Poor lilkayden was slping almost for whole day. Did not eat anything, puke out all the medicine he took.





His leg.. on drip.. Sigh


Feeling better today, drank a bottle of glucose water...

His ward.... with two pretty balloons...from his gugu (bear) and mummy (elmo).

Doctor don't allow kayden to have any milk yet, he can only drink plain water or glucose at the moment. If he never puke it out, then might be able to have milk at night.

Haiz...

All i hope for is Lilkayden's recovery

Lilkayden was admitted to KK hospital last night due to non stop vomitting. Suspected cause is stomach flu.. now still under observation. He's on drip now, through one of his vein on his ankle. He cant take any food right now, cause wadever he eat, he will vomit them out.

It's really hurt to see my darling boy in such condition now, now no laughter, no smile... he's tired, restless, he seems to be in pain.

I want my healthy lively kayden to be back. Sigh...

Chocolate + cream + cheese = Rojak taste

Hmm the taste of the chocolate mud cheesecake issn't really right. It looked pretty and yummy though.

Taste weird. Haha. Dark chocolate = bitter, coffee powder = bitter, = cream = sweet, cheese = sour

Rojak taste. Regret spending so much time and money to bake this weird cake.

Will not use dark chocolate in cheesecake anymore.

Will try chocolate mud cake without cheese next time!


AND ITS FREAKING FUCKING HOT NOWADAYS!!

NB HEATER OFF AND THE WATER IS STILL FUCKING WARM!

I AM CRAVING FOR COLD DRINKS AND AIRCON ALMOST EVERYDAY, EVERY HOUR, EVERY MINUTE, IN FACT EVERY SECOND.

FUCK.

This month electricity sure fucking expensive one la! BROKE!!! T_T

My sis weighing 54kg, i am fucking 12 kgs heavier than her. Fuck! 168cm, 66 kg. Fucking fat!

I wana get rid of more fats from my body!

Chocolate mud cheesecake done! haha successfully and smoothly, i did not miss out any ingredient along the way.

Now left the taste, will try it out tomorrow as it still need 6 hours of chilling!

Anyway, had a great time playing Rayman with mummy, sis and hubbie. Haha Simply just laughing all the way! I can't imagine the scenerio playing with ting, bing and sher, they sure gonna go crazily laughing away and loudly! Need to build sound proof door for lilkayden liao. WAHAHAHA

Good times with old friend

Haha, finally met up with her liao!

Met Jenny at 2pm for a super late lunch as her kids will only be back at 1plus. Left house at 1.30 as her house is super near to mine. So waited for around 20 mins below her house.

Initially we planned to go down West Coast mac as there is a super huge playground for her daughter, but the weather today was damn fucking hot, so we dropped that idea.

Headed down to Jurong Point for lunch instead.

Lunched at Long John, then shopped around till 5pm.

I doubted on asking her out initially, i scared things will turn awkward as we haven't met up for quite some times liao.

But things went smoothly.. haha we clicked very well just like last time.

We talked about everything, gossiping, complaining, laughing all the way. We chatted about clothes, the shop salesgirl's attitude, relationship and alot alot.

Simply love her accompany!!! Hope can meet up with her again real soon!!

Lately i am so in love with Guess bags.

So pretty!! I've saw one, black handbag with bling bling diamond on it. Wow!!

Love it! And now I am saving for it. =(

Well maybe like Ting say I've been thinking too much. But such relationship, i can't possibily ignore or not think too much. It is important to me!!! And i think its pretty obvious, when i talked about this to mummy, even she agreed to it.

Anyway met up with WJ yesterday, tried on his client's Honda. Conclusion...sport designed car simply sucks! Hahaha I am more comfortable with my Hyundai Avante...

And I so fucking want to meet her lor, we are just staying at the same street just a few blocks away but why i just do not have the initiation to ask her out? Or maybe even she ask me out I might find excuse to siam?

I am so fucking contradicting myself.

(Sound lesbo? She was my lesbo many years back. HAHAHA)

And a very random add-on

I've downloaded the Rayman raving rabbids... And i think it quite fun.. but tiring and lame too. WAHAHAHAHA. Thanks for your reco Ting!

Videos of my Darling

U can watch them in LilKayden's blog too.

Enjoy!

My SB life!

Seriously i think something is missing in my life. And i think it is WORK.

I missed working. Haha. When i was working i complaint about stress and stuff but now i am missing my working life.

Everyday doing nth at home is BORING! My daily routine was like.. wake up, wash up myself, go down play with kayden, go out for lunch with hubby, then come back either play kayden or baking or cooking for dinner, after dinner, maybe look after kayden while my maid bathing or playing wii till tired then slp.

I want to look for job now! But i think i can't. Result will be out in end april and my new course might be starting in may if i choose the earlier intake. So no point going out for work now.

Yesterday was shopping day with family. I bought one set of osh gosh for lil kayden, so cute! Hubbie bought a "beachwear" short pants for himself and also bought lil kayden the same design, but in mini size de. Haha now daddy and lil kayden can wear same pants out. As OP having 31% discout for all the stuff, i pampered myself with a nice white skirt..haha. Sis also bought the same design and mummy bought the grey colour de.

And i also bought one pretty skirt from Zara and one shorts from IP zone. So yesterday was "Bottom" shopping day! LOL

Met up with steamboat gang on Saturday evening for dinner... stingray, sotong, fish and more fish. The "chicken fish" was nicest of all. Then they shopped for tibits, saw alot of my childhood favourites! The Doraemon chocolate biscuit, the ice cream cone with the strawberry icing paste. When i was young, i love squeezing alot alot of the strawberry paste on my ice cream cone. Fun!

After shopping, headed up to my house for WII... Mario kart and then mario party 8. Lots of laughter from them. Hope that they had enjoyed themselves.

Lil kayden going to have a car of his own soon! Yay! HAHAHA.

Weeks back, saw a jeep in ToyRUs, which cost nearly to $300. Hubbie was so tempted to buy one for Kayden. Saw a few more yesterday at Vivo ToyRus... so pretty, almost wanted to get one yesterday le. Then my sis said she will buy one for lil Kayden on his birthday. Woot! Save money and free car! HAHAHA Thank you lil kayden's Ah YI!

Lil kayden gonna look so cool when driving in it. WAHAHA.



Abit random here..

I truely believe that woman are most senstive human being on earth. They will know alot of things even u did not tell them. Sometimes they might be wrong but most of the time they will guess correctly.

Last night, i told hubbie something... something which made me cry. I think she don't like me, for alot of reasons, i think she don't like me. I tried hard but i think after my every try, i felt more upset cos i think she still don't like me. I think this gonna be the first time i tried so hard to make someone like me. I am absolutely so not myself this time, I never make such an hard attempt before.. Although at times i do mind how other would look / feel at me, but i won't do it to the extend of changing myself for that person. But this time is very different, i can't possibily ignore it. Perhaps I will just keep on trying.. but will stop when i think it's enough for me.

My joy, my happiness

Just came back from clinic. Bought darling to doctor. He issn't feeling well, diarrhea 4 times since morning. Doc said prolly because of virus. Prescribed some powder medicine for him. He will be fine soon.

Finally finished the 1st part of my Lychee cheesecake. Need to chill it for 6 hours in fridge and will continue doing the top part - lychee jelly tmr morning.

I am such a careless /forgetful bitch. I always tend to forget to buy this ingredient, forget buy that ingredient everytime before baking. Or either even i go through the recipe a couple of times, i would still miss out one or two ingredient.

I planned to bake this yesterday but i've realised i missed out the thicken cream. Okie, hubbie and mummy told me nevermind, wait till tomorrow then do lo.

Then today i went out to buy thicken cream and milk (i thought, i remembered i need milk, but when i reached home, refer back to recipe then realized milk is not required, fcuk!) Well nevermind, hubbie can drink the milk, or it can wait for my next baking. (not sure when is that though).

Gotten my cream then i was happily preparing the ingredient then i realized i missed out something again. I did not buy lemon!! I didn't even know lemon is needed. I've gone through the recipe at least 3 times, i didn't even saw the "lemon juice". And I did not used lemon for my past two NY and oreo cheesecake. Hmm. prolly the lemon is the substitute for sour cream, since both taste sour. HAHA (Fking nonsense)

And so i asked my maid to go to the nearest supermkt and buy 3 lemons for me. So finally can proceed with the cake.

Hopefully it will taste good. Hubbie looking forward to eat the cake. LOL.

They are my happiness, they are my joy.

They mean the world to me...

Nights!

i hate copycats! Pui!

Anyway later might have to drive all the way to airport alone, late night somemore. My sis and her bf back from her taiwan trip, gotta go fetch them. Hubby might be going soccer with his friends, so most likely i am going alone.

Bought all the neccessary ingredient for lychee cheesecake.. but when i reached home i've realised i miss out the thicken cream. Dam! Lazy to go down and buy liao la, going to rain somemore.. So i won't be baking today.

Tonight not cooking either, my maid doing the cooking. Didn't really had a good slp last night, eyes still tired.

Going wii awhile then maybe take a nap liao. Byes!

Btw, kayden's 1st yr birthday celebration will be on 23rd may, saturday, timing most likely to be in evening, exact timing and venue to be confirm soon. My dear friends, pls try to keep yourself free.. Thank you thank you.

Byes x 2 !

To ting..

thanks for your entry. I was alittle emo when posting that entry just now, i did not think much when i wrote. =/ Maybe when i read yours, i think of my past...Being a wife, a mother now, there's alot of limitation you know? Everything I do, I have to consider about my boy and family first. I can't play like the past...and this explains why i missed my past so much. Haha

Perhaps you are right. It is not that I do not have friends who is willing to listen, I am the one who do not want to speak. I am a good listener, but I am never a good speaker.

I believe both of us are same type... But you are doing better than me. You've learnt to let go bits by bits. But for me, i am still keeping things to myself. Haha. At times it's really hard to master the speaking skills leh.

Till now the most comfortable way of letting out things is by talking to doggies and rabbits about my stuffs. And sometimes i even talk to myself in the mirror. Freaking right? Haha
To me i feel that problems which i keep to myself are prisoners... I locked them all up and when it get too crowded inside, I felt discomfort.

Talking to my pets is so far the best way to release my prisoners.

I know I have still lots of friends who care, including you (else you won't make the effort to write such a long post fot me, right?) and also the steamboat gang, fuzi, dellas, fion, cat and many many more. Not forgetting the one in aussie, my dearest jing. At times it is very difficult to keep in touch with someone overseas and who do not like to use her computer. Never check emails, never login msn. But it doesn't matter, most importantly i know she is doing fine over there can liao. And I know I have a cute baby boy, and also a loving husband and family.

Ting, you have a loving family too and also you have alot of friends who care for you too including me. We love you.. Hahaha!

Regarding your insomnia.. hmm.. don't treat it lightly k? Maybe for now, it was due to your exam stress etc.. but if it's long term problem, you have to seek for treatment. Remember your resolution for this year? Love yourself more. =)

Pls ignore my previous stupid post. I dono what the hell i was thinking when I was writting that post. Perhaps I am just thinking and missing some of my old friends.

Actually well.. I am not that "pathetic" la. I still have friends around whom care. Maybe just that at times I am not that good at expressing myself or perhaps I should say I do not like my friends to know my problems. I am a weirdo. I hope to have friends who can share my joys and sorrows but most of the times I do not wish to let them know what kind of problems I am having. Perhaps "pride" is the factor which have been making myself so miserable.

I tend to only share my joy and happiness to my family and friends, but when facing problems, I will only keep it to myself. I always appear happy, contented infront of others, but no one ever knows what kind of problems i am facing. Even when blogging, when I am upset, i really wish to write all those unhappiness out, but i did not or maybe i had typed hundred of words about the thing happened, but I don't have the courage to post it, i will just ctrl A and delete.

But anyway I am still doing fine now. Maybe because of him...and also my family.

I am glad all these times he is always by my side. Even when we quarrelled, i told him i need time alone, he will tell me "I won't leave you alone. I will sit by one corner, won't make a single sound, won't talk, won't disturb you. So pls do not ask me to leave you alone here "

There was a period when I am suffering from serious depression. He was the one who did not look down at me, he was the one who encourage me to see doctor, he was the one who do not care how others would look / think of him and accompanied me to every doctor visits. He was the one who make sure I had eaten my medicine every night. He was the one who always calm me down when I am feeling tense up.

Though sometimes he do things which really make me upset / pissed off, but he will apologise, he will try his best to change. He even created a message in his saved item, listing all the things he done which made me angry and will oftenly go through that list to remind himself. Lol. But i do not know why i did not see that message in his handphone anymore liao. Maybe he think that he is confident in remembering that list, so he deleted it. Or maybe he think that he is already perfect liao, so he do not need those reminder again. =.=

He issn't the perfect man, but I believe he will try his best to be my perfect man.

I love you... and I love my family... and i love my friends.

Friends?

I really envy those who are millions of friends who care so much for them, those who have close friends who are willing to lend their ears when you need them, those who have friends who can accompany them when they are feeling upset.

I used to have such a life too. Had friends who are willing to accompany throughout the whole night, had friends to chat through phone almost every night, had someone to call when I need help or upset... But those were all the past. My best friend is far away in aussie, another two are busying with their families and children but i seldom share problems with these two friends, i am more to listener role. I do not like to talk to them abt my problems, cause their thinkings are way too different from me, they solve problems by drinking, drunking... They won't patiently sit down and listen to your problems, they will prolly ask you to drink more, don't think too much. So i would rather be the one listening than talking.

Friends are limited now. Those who are willing to listen are even more rare now.

Sigh

Met up with Dellas, Lai and Ken for lunch today. Went down all the way to East Coast for a super bo-hua lunch.

Ala Carte lunch buffet ard $30 each... the dishes sucks to the max. Abalone small like dono wad, shark fin majiam plain water. Definately not worth the price lo. Felt cheated. Lols.

No chance to snap any pics cos Darling Kayden not in mood today, me and hubbie took turns to entertain him and carry him around. Shag.

Anyway, Christmas still not very fine today. Restless still. I fed him food and treats, he used his head and pushed my hands away. Then i tried feeding him some greens, he started to eat. Although i don't have the habit of feeding them with green but no choice, I have to get Christmas eating, his poos very small. And I am worried that he is not drinking too, so vege is the best solution i can think of. But later in evening, i gave him green he rejected again. Sigh.

Hope he will be just fine

Its been 2 days since Christmas came back from his operation. He issn't eating much at all, still feeling restless. I am worried that he can't endure the pain and couldn't make it.

Had a bad quarrel with hubbie yesterday. Very angry lo! He shouted at me leh, in public somemore.. just because of the word "common sense"

And i thought he purposely dont want to eat the 2 dishes i cooked for dinner yesterday, "紅燒排骨" and steam meat in Balsam Pear "苦瓜蒸 肉". I purposely cook that 苦瓜 for him de cos recently he's having painful ulcer in his mouth then he never even bother to touch it. Dam angry lo. But later he explained to me saying that he never eat cos because of his ulcer, too painful to chew on meat. -.-"

Anyway that's over. We are ok already. Haha

Brought Christmas down to vet for his sterlisation operation today. Felt abit sad when sending him in. Vet called just now, saying his surgery was done and he just woke up. Can collect him anytime after lunch hour. Setting off to pick him up in half an hr time. Have to wake up the pig who is still sleeping now.

Eve already had her spaying done few days back and she is recovering pretty fast.

Reason why I sterilised my two buns because... of their serious urine stain on their body. The horny male kept want to hump the female and the female pissed off, sprayed her urine all over on the male body. So no choice, have to "ka-cha" the male.. as for female, heard that they will live longer if spayed. Removing her ovaries and uterus will decrease the chances of getting cancer i think. Same as dogs i think.

Ok i think i better wake that pig up liao.

Btw anyone have good ulcer medicine to reco? Hubbie suffering slpless night due to his painful ulcer on his tongue.