Studied 3/4 of my marketing paper liao so decided to come and blog abit.

Anyway guys, don't worry too much. I am doing well now, just abit stress up with exams. Weight wise I am not that worry anymore as I can fit in my old clothings already and some of my skirts are abit loose for me now. But perhaps just wana slim down abit more. Doing more exerices doesn't only bring your weight down, and are also good for health. I enjoy cycling alot. I used to cycle daily before pregnancy.

Back to my previous topic...

Being a mother is not an easy task.

Phyiscally....

During prenancy period, you have to endure with the nauseous feeling, pains and cramps, you can hardly sleep well at night. During the later stage of pregnancy, you will be visiting toilets very often at night too. Due to the serious water retention, my fingers started to ache since the 4th of pregnancy. I cant sleep at night, cos the pain is simply unendurable. Then followed by leg cramps...

At the 8 months of pregnancy, sometimes my stomach will ache in the middle of the night. During the stage, not only me who suffer, XP suffered alot too. He had to wake up in the middle of the night, massaging my fingers or legs, waiting for me when i was in toilet. Poor him.

Psychologically...
I have been worrying since after i knew i was pregnant. Worrying that I will have miscarriage... then after the 3rd month, I started to worry about the growing of my baby. Will he be healthy? Will he fully formed?

After birth... the list still goes on...

1) Is he drinking well?
2) Is he growing healthily?
3) When is his next jab?
4) Is the milk suitable for him?
5) Why is he coughing?
6) Does he have problem swallowing the porriage?
7) Will he have fever after his jab?
8) When will his first tooth out?
9) When will he be able to sit by himself?
10) When will he start to talk?
11) When will he start to climb, walk?
12) How to get him toilet trained?
13) Why is he crying non-stop? What does he want?
14) Is he not feeling well?

The list will go on and on forever...

Not forgetting financially sufferings too...
Nowadays diapers and milk powder are dam fucking expensive. And i heard that school fees are expensive nowadays too. Stress arh!

But still being a mummy is the most happy thing on earth.

Yiting, sher, Dee.... when is your turn?? Lols.

Being a mother issn't an easy task...

Will blog more after my exams.

Total disappointment in myself

I screwed up my Accounting paper.

I got my depreciation part 2 correct but I hesitated on my answer and i striked off the whole page and re did it again, using my own fucking calcuation (don't know where did i got this formula) and i lost around 7-10 marks. Fuck.

And my balance sheet, i input the profit under current asset and it should be under owner's equity. I don't know why would I make such a mistake, i memories it and i screwed it up.

I am too stressed up and i really can't tolerate myself for making such mistakes. I have no confidence in my account paper anymore. I am unsure if i got make careless mistakes in other areas.. did i do the calculation correctly? Did i miss out anything on my answers? Did i use the wrong method? Sigh. I am worried... I do not want re-exams.. i do not want re-module...

Recently I have very high expectation of myself. My exams, my weight... I am over concerned about everything.

During my pregnancy period, i gained alot... from 6xkg to 104kg (that night before the delivery). Fucking 40 plus kg!!!

During the first six month of my pregnancy... i ate alot. Especially sweet food like candies, chocolates, durian... I had ard 5 meals a day and from 6xkg, i gained a total of 20 kgs plus during the first six months. Doctor told me to control my diet and i reduced my intake.. But still my weight kept on going up... almost 5 kgs every week. Then i realised that I've been taking too much salty food hence causing water retention. I had swollen fingers, hands, legs... Basically i just looked like a ball during the later stage of my pregnancy.

I almost cried out when i weighed myself on that day just before the delivery... Fucking 104kg. I told myself I must slim down myself after my pregnancy.

During the 1st month after delivery, the confinement period,i ate as normal. As soon as my confinement over, i started going on diet. I decrease my intake on rice... cut down almost half of my regular intake. My weight went down... Then i started exercising though my wounds had not recovered fully. I went swimming, i played squash...

Around the 5th month after delivery, my weight went down from 104 to 80kg. Then my weight stucked..at 80+-for one month. I was upset. Then i started to eat even more lesser. No rice, no noodles. But my weight didn't went down alot.

I reduced my intake on food by half again.. i weighed myself before and after every meal... normally after my meal, i will usually gain around 1 kg... but i had been very strict with myself.. i only allow myself to gain less than 0.5 kg after every meal. From 3 meals a day, i reduced it to 1-2 meals. And for every meal, i only ate 1/4 or 1/3 of normal portion without rice.

I have been "torturing" myself for 8 months plus... and now finally I am back to my 6x. But i wasn't contented.. lol i am aiming for another 10kg more to go. I can't reduce my diet anymore, as I think this would be the minimum that I could go. After exams... i going for exercises.. I can't jog due to my asthma, so I am going to cycle everyday if not once or twice a week.

I know alot of you will tell me this issn't the healthy way to go on diet. Even my hubby does not agree on my method and he is quite unhappy about it. But pls understand me... in the past, seeing myself in the mirror with that kind of size... people calling me names.....cant wear back my old clothings and had to buy bigger size clothes.... all these are really hurting.

I do not know why i am having such high expectation for myself. Frankly speaking, during these few months, i haven't been really happy with life. Facing alot of stress... from my weight to my studies...

2 more papers to go and I will getting really worried. Sigh. No more confidence in myself anymore. Haiz.

Stuck

I'm stuck with my revision on accounting.

Inventory (Fifo, Average Cost Method) (I'm done with it)
Depreciation (Fuck! I am stuck at this fucking dam Depreciation, sigh)
Journal (Can consider done, need abit more of revision)
Final Account 1 ( Income and expense statement, End of period balance sheet) Hmm half fuck, need alittle bit more of practice
Final Account 2 (Classiified profit and expenses, Classified balance sheet) Same half fuck too.

Two more days to my accounting paper and I'm stuck with depreciation. Sigh. Meeting up with classmates on Thursday to get help.

Monday is my Sales & Marketing paper. Here goes my weekends. Sigh.

Then next thursday my last paper, HR Management. Can consider my fav module and I am considering to further my studies in this area after my course finish. Hence i am targetting to score very well for this module. Need to put in all my efforts! Jiayou!

Yesterday was a nice steamboat dinner with my classmates, celebrating Angeline's birthday.
Tian Tian Steamboat is nice. I like their pig livers, so soft and tender and also some of their marinated meat. I didnt eat much... wasted 19 bucks.

After dinner, we headed to Cathay for a 3D movie "My Bloody Valentine" Not bad, but comparing it with the Saw, i prefer Saw. Haha.

Outing with these bunch of gals is fun. Hope there will be more after exams.

Ok time for my account revision liao. Byes

Coach Bag for SALE

Selling on behalf for friend.

Though it's used. But still in very good condition.

Comes with dustbag.

Selling at $300.

Sms me if interested. Collection most probably be arranged in the East.