Missing him

Here alone on bed...

Feel xin fu with my 3 dogs beside me...

But feel upset without hubby beside...

Wonder wat he doing now? Tired or not.

Sigh...

Peaceful mind

Peaceful mind when under water... u can hear nothing, think nothing.

Fell in love with swimming. Swim daily non stop for 45 mins. My skin tone's getting darker liao. Sigh. I wanna be "fair lady" but i can't stop swimming.

Swimming is the only place when I'm free from stress, thoughts, problems etc. Everything seems so peaceful underwater. How I wish i can live underwater just like those fishes.

Water maybe nice, beautiful, peaceful but it kills. Recently there's an accident over at Little Guilin. Heard from my mother in law, that a 40 plus indian lady fell into Little Guilin and drown. Heard from my mummy, even u swim very well, you can get drown inside too. Scary =/

Anyway had my 2nd driving lesson today, different vehicle, different instructor. This instructor is much more better than the previous one lor. Got scolded a few times but i learned alot.

He told me that alot of ppl complained about my previous instructor. Lazy, bad temper, impatience. Only know how to bring ppl to the road circuit and practice there. Never really teach you how to drive on road, control steering, keep telling u to agar agar. So suay to have him as my first instructor. Pray hard that my this coming thursday lesson's instructor is not him.

Planned to have a steamboat gathering this coming friday with sher, bing, gt, ting, yuan and dee. But not confirm yet i think. Eh... confirm or not i also dono. Lols. Sher, yuan, dee, bing confirmed, but not sure GT and ting joining us anot. Maybe steamboat confirm, but the mahjong session after steamboat not confirm. Cos without GT and Ting, we can't mahjong. Lol. I miss the sound of the mahjong tiles and this time, I am not going to be suay liao.

I haven't watch "10 promise to my dog" yet. Sigh... Anyone want to watch this show also? Think film going down soon. Haiz. Maybe wait for dvd / vcd out then watch bah.

Meeting dearest fuzi tomorrow for shopping and dinner. Meeting alice for dinner too. Think hubbie can't join us. Think he will have to standby for meetings tomorrow. Sigh.

Why is hubbie so busy? Sigh =(

Why am i grumbling? Haiz. He need to work! SLAP! Be more understanding abit la!!!

Empty, fear

Felt empty recently.

Too much free time, nothing to do.

Been thinking too much, not used to current life.

Old health problem's back haunting me again.

I don't want to be like the past.

A Day without XP and Kayden

Watched Hellboy today with Dellas, Lai and Ken. It's a very nice show. I like the "tooth fairy", its dam cute!

Before that, k-ed at MS kbox, their today bento lunch don't really taste good. My voice getting alittle bit better than last time liao but still quite jia lat. Still cannot sing Ah Mei "Ji De". Sigh.

Had Sakae Sushi for dinner, dono why, recently craving for Japanese food especially salmon. Had 3 plates for salmon for dinner just now only. Though not really full but contented! Yummy!

After dinner, went straight back to my mum place to pick Kayden up and cabbed home.

Recently XP's very busy with his work. Went out in the morning, come back next morning 5am plus. He hardly have enough slp. Only slept for few hours and need to get back to work, meetings etc. His uclers problem back again. Sigh. Worried. =/

I'm am diet now but yet i just ate 8 pcs of chocolate cookies! ROAR!!!

Dreams Vs Reality

What are dreams?

Will the things in the dreams eventually come true in reality?

What usually appear in dreams?? Is it....

Thing or person which you always think of in reality?

Or something which you never want to think or recall but still kept deep inside your heart?

Bad memories which hurt you badly?

What does it means when you continuously dream of the same thing or person for a few nights?

I'm confused with dream and reality. I dono what I am thinking anymore.

I dono how to differentiate feelings in dreams and in real anymore.

I'm frightened to fall aslp nowadays, fear of dreams. I dowan them to affect my feelings in reality. I dowan them to affect my thoughts. I dowan them to affect everything.

Becos of dreams I start comparing things. I start to think alot. I hate such feelings.

How can I stop dreaming... Haiz.

Btw, swimming can really relax one's mind. I feel so relax after swim. Those who are facing stress or having problems, go try it out. If you dono hw to swim, just soak yourself in the pool.