I'll never dare to say out again

I admit I suck at coping with stress.

During my working days, no matter how much stress and pressure customers or superior gave me, I can still cope with those. But now...

He told me, " Dear ar.. You must learn hw to cope with stress. Cannot everytime so frustrated one." He said to me a thousand times before le, but I'm still the same.

Baby crying, dog barkings, accounts all driving me nuts.

I told him that I'm stress with the messy account. I do not know how to sort it out, everything's in a mess. I just hope that he can hug me tightly and tell me "Nvm, later I help you and we sort it out slowly together, dun be stress liao."

I know he was slping and tired. I do not want to disturb him de, don't wish to irritate him with my problem but I really going to break down le. I just need his console and hug. But he only told me that later go down to shop, ask and tally with them. Told me not to get stress up and frustrated so easy.

Went swimming again. Guess swimming pool is the only place when I can cry all I want, without anyone seeing.

I'm not emo just upset with myself. Why can't I be more stronger abit. Why I must keep on relying on ppl... why can I be more independant abit. I'm weak.

Now...I just need a place without any baby crying, dogs barking, without him, without anyone I know. I just wish to be alone. I just need peace.

I will never want to bug him with my problems anymore. I will never say things out anymore. I must learn to take all things by myself.