Did anyone miss me?? I'm back!

Yo! I'm back.

Sorry for my late update, need to attend to a few personal stuffs these few days.

Shenzhen is a great place to shop, everything so cheap. If you girls got chance to go Shenzhen, you must go 东门，its similar to Bugis street. But the things there are much more cheaper. You can bargain till 50% down of the price. You can get pretty bags and shoes at the price range of S$10-20.

Here's the budget airplane we took to Shenzhen. TigerAirway.

Checking in hotel - Vienna Hotel 维尔娜酒店
First meal in Shenzhen. Yummy... Barberqued oysters..

Barberqued brinjal (dono spelling correct anot), it taste just like bbq-ed stingray. Yum yum!
My favourite!! Bbq-ed sausage. The taste is really *thumb up!
Bbq-ed chickenwing. Lols, they said it look like batman! Haha
Our hotel...

Roasted Pigeon. Something which you can eat in Singapore. It taste similar to roasted chicken but more crispy and tender.

At a Hong Kong cafe,



世界之窗 You will feel like you've been around the whole after you visited place. You will find Eiffel tower, Japanese village, pyramids even Merlion there, but all in miniature size. A place great for photo taking....

But do not go during summer, else you will sure faint or get heatstroke. Its freaking hot over at Shenzhen now.

Dono wad place is this... But it's beautiful.

In India.. i suppose..
The Eiffel tower at the back. The front 维而思 (again, i dono if I've wrote it correctly, anw heck care la).
Japanese Village...
Pyramids...

Africa.. did you see an elephant? Its small...

Nice food... 猪骨包

My favourite drink - Sprite. Lols I am lame.
The 猪骨，its huge!
Yummy yummy! Look! Hubbie is drooling.
The gays acting cute!!

Acting cool.
There's are more photos but I'm lazy to upload all of them. Wait till I'm more hmmm, then I'll upload more. For now, bear with these. Lols

Going for "Mummy" the movie later with Santuary gangs... And....

Meeting Sher and gangs tomorrow to celebrate Sher's birthday. I miss them loads!!

Flying off~

Water's freaking cold in the morning. After i jumped into the water, I was OMG so dam cold and shivered non stop for ard 15 mins.

I'm flying off in just a few hrs time.

Talking about this trip, abit pissed off. Our initial planning was to land on shenzhen then go hong kong for the next two days to shop around and back to shenzhen on monday for the night flight back to singapore.

Due to the coming Olympics, all visitors to China must apply visa. And we did.

But till yesterday then we realised the visa we applied is only for single entry. Damit. Meaning once we reach Shenzhen, we cant go out of shenzhen to hong kong liao. Once out, we can't go back, cos of the stupid visa thing.

My planning all ruin. Disney, shopping all gone. Haiz.

Now have to stay at Shenzhen for 4 days, sian.

Don't know where to shop in shenzhen, dono where to fun around there also.

Cock up trip. Sigh.

Hopefully this trip will be fun. Will update photos when I'm back.

Tata and cya guys on Tuesday!

Rock abye baby...

on the tree top...

When the wind blows, the cradle will rock...

Shhh... lil kayden is slping.

And thanks all for your concerns. I'm fine right now.

Had a good talk with them just now in shop. Well, they admitted they were indeed unhappy with me in the past. But it's all misunderstanding. They kept inside and never clarify. And they apologised for all the things they said.

And for now, they are alright with me le.

If things were not clarified, there will be alot of ugly and embarrassing scenes during our trip to ShenZhen tomorrow.

Thanks hubbie. If not for you, I won't have the courage to face and talk with them. I might be still running away from it. Anyway one of them said, even I did not approach them to talk at shop, they will still come straight up to my house tonight to apologise and explain to me.

Guys are inconsiderate. They never spare a thought for us. By all means, they just want to settle this misuderstanding by tonight but they never think if I'm ready to face them anot.

But anyway misunderstanding cleared, apologies accepted.

Think back, I'm at fault also bah. I admit that I'm too strict on the company fund, preventing negative funds. And i seldom go down shop to help out, leaving them fighting alone at shop. Frankly speaking, looking after shop is boring, lols, during that period i was pregnant, I can't tahan the warm temperature at shop. Then after birth, I was playful. Mind only keep on thinking play, shop and club. And of cos accompanying my little kayden. I didnt spare a thought for them. My sincere apology for all these.

And both XP and me had never treat you all as "workers", to us you all are our friends. We are really grateful that you all put so much efforts in maintaining and pushing up the sales for the shop.

Hopefully if you guys got anything unhappy with us again, pls voice out to us. Do not keep it inside. Its very unhealthy for friendship. I treasure this friendship, I do not want it to be ruined and hubbie feel the same too.

If you treasure it too, pls take care of it. Don't let friendship turn sick becos of unhealthy stuffs.
^_^

Time to heal

Rec'd smses from them last night. Asking me to cool down and accepting his apologies.

I dono wad to reply. I wish to forgive and forget. I guess eventually I will forgive but it's hard to forget. The wound's there already, even it heal there will be scar too.

I wish things will go back to the old days but it's hard. I dono how to face them for now.

It hurts when u found out the person whom you actually trust is doing such things behind me.

And I knew I'm at fault too. If I haven't done anything wrong, there's no reason for them to hate / dislike me. I have must done something that irritates them. My apology for this.

From today onwards, I won't be handling company funds and accounts. I have passed all over to XP, and he will be incharge from today. I won't be interfering company stuffs, I will wash my hands off all company related stuffs.

I dono wad to reply to them. I have no answers yet. Guess I need Time To Heal.

Tears are words the heart can't say

Went down to Mono with Weiting and Denise last night. Initial plan was to go Dragonfly but suddenly feel like singing, so went to Mono instead.

Enjoyed myself whole night singing, playing dice, drinking, joking and laughing. 3 ladies finished almost 2/3 of the chivas and one jug of beer.

Wanted to take photo but I can't figure out how to switch on the flash light for my camera. Zzzz.

It's really hurts to know that those whom you treated as friends had been backstabbing behind you all these while.

Not happy about me handling and controlling company funds, not happy with me for not emptying their rubbish bin, felt pissed off when see me, not happy with XP for letting me take control of everything, even say dono why XP will like such girl like me.

Well that's already hurting enough, they even seek advice from some kind of Shi fu, telling the Shi Fu that me have been trying to control everything in the shop, seeking help from that Shi Fu.

Firstly I wanna say I wasn't controlling everything. They have the freedom to come shop late, close shop early, etc. I never interfere on that. My only concern is the money issue. I am just trying to protect the shop, i don't want company to spend too much on stock causing negative funds and have to fork in extra cash to maintain it.

Knowing that one of them having family and financial problems, I had been trying my best to help. Get my maid to cook extra for them, gave them the $140 ntuc vouchers which me and XP went all the way to Pasir Ris to collect.

This month sales in shop wasn't quite good. Might be losing money. Their salary is based on profit sharing, which means if shop's losing money this month, they won't be getting any cent for salary. I even suggested XP to give them salary using our company stock funds for this month. Well now, maybe just forget it.

Writting too much in blog isn't a good thing too. Will make ppl gossip about you or even pissed off with you.

For example, blogging about buying branded bags, shopping, clubbing...

What we spent were all from our savings not money from company funds. I don't see anything wrong with that.

I know you guys have many unhappy stuffs kept inside. Else you won't be saying this during Kayden's full month "去晓平那边, sian ar! 等下别人讲，晓平的工人来了." and “要包多少?” “$2 lor”，“没有包tissue paper算很好了”.

Shocked to know that the above came from their mouth. Really dam shocking and saddening.

I truely treat you all as friends. And had never backstab anything about you guys. Truely want to help out when I know you guys have problems. But I don't think you treat me as one before. I'm just someone you hate to see.

Thanks my "friend", thanks for all these.

小蜜蜂说...

小蜜蜂说...

"不要动!"



Lols, had this cute lil dream last night.


Dreamt of me playing 小蜜蜂说 with grown up Kayden. Couldnt rem how the grown up Kayden look in my dreams, everything was blur. A few more ppl playing too but I'm not sure who they are.

Dreams can either be dam sweet or dam scary.

Kayden nowadays so notti. During the day, don't like to slp or lay down on bed. Want ppl to carry him and walk around or play with him. So kpo!

Buay tahan! -_-

Loves 사랑

Lotsa things I love in life..

I love shopping.
I love money.
I love bags.
I love boots.
I love black.
I love white.
I love red.
I love dogs.
I love japanese food.
I love swimming.
I love vitasoy.
I love Hello Panda biscuit.
I love strawberries.
I love durians.
I love wine.
I love my family.
I love my hubbie.
I love my baby.
I love my dogs.
I love my friends.

and so much more...

I'm so greedy. =P

Went down to Paya Lebar with hubbie, ZM and Weiting to have hubbie's boss bmw car re-sprayed.

Accompanied Weiting to her cousin shop to collect the language bag.

Then we went down to a prata shop at Jln Kayu. Ordered an Indian Rojak to share, hubbie ordered a "Mutubak", not sure if i spelled it correctly anot lols. He's greedy and he only managed to finish half of it.

After makan, we went down to Weiting's bro house to get a handphone set from him. His dog "Hugo" is so cute and friendly lor. First time I see a male dog which is so guai. I always thought that male dog are barkish, naughty. But Hugo is very tame and he's toilet trained. He only poo and pee when his owner bring him down for walk. More guai than my 3 female dogs lor.

Presenting Hugooo...

My hair's a very bad condition now. Sigh. Chlorine make my hair so dry now. Very hard to maintain. Just switched my shampoo, conditioner and treatment cream to Loreal Orange color, hope they will make my hair better. Any good hair moisturizer to recommend?

And...

And...

And...



One of my loves...

Off to bed soon, nights all.

SLS Simply Love Steamboat

Last Friday steamboat was an enjoying one. Had a great time chatting and gossiping, and of cos scooping and snatching the food. Pai seh for the "squeezy" dinner, lol, shld get a bigger dinning table. And thanks to Bing for the dinner. If I know you are treating, I would have bought abalone, scallops, sharkfins, crabs.... Lols

And as usual, mahjong tt night with ting, GT and bing. Lost 1 dollar =/ And poor ting, not feeling well still mahjong with us till 2am. Thanks dear.

Did nothing much for the weekend. Went my mum's place for dinner yesterday. And ordered KFC for dinner. And we also ordered the 933 golden pillow. The curry and bread is nice.

Also discussed with my parents about shifting house. We are planning to get a bigger flat, 6 room Executive Apartment so that we can stay together. XP name can't be used for buying HDB, so have to use my parents one. Well, still planning la. Hven't confirm yet.

Staying in condo is dam expensive. Zzz. Last month electricity bill went up to $400 plus. Zzz. Very down liao. Sigh.

I wanna watch Dark Knight...

And I am leaving for my Shenzhen and Hong Kong trip this coming friday but yet I'm not excited about it. I gonna miss Kayden and my 3 little darlings alot alot. Sigh.

Shopping <3

Weiting was so right. Shopping is a way to de-stress ourselves.

While waiting for hubbie to fetch me, I bought a DKNY bag from Vivo Tangs yesterday.

It was nice and its black, my favourite color. The buckle is unique. (Maybe not really tt unique, just that I mountain tortise, never see before)




Watched "10 Promises to my Dog" at Vivo GV yesterday alone. The show's dam nice and touching. I cried till very cham especially when the Golden Retriever "Socks" died. =/

I wana watch "Dark Knight" and "Mummy Return". Movie movie movie =)

Going for swim now. Then later need to prepare for steamboat liao. Friends coming over for steamboat dinner. Gossip chit chat time!

Lastly....


=)

I'll never dare to say out again

I admit I suck at coping with stress.

During my working days, no matter how much stress and pressure customers or superior gave me, I can still cope with those. But now...

He told me, " Dear ar.. You must learn hw to cope with stress. Cannot everytime so frustrated one." He said to me a thousand times before le, but I'm still the same.

Baby crying, dog barkings, accounts all driving me nuts.

I told him that I'm stress with the messy account. I do not know how to sort it out, everything's in a mess. I just hope that he can hug me tightly and tell me "Nvm, later I help you and we sort it out slowly together, dun be stress liao."

I know he was slping and tired. I do not want to disturb him de, don't wish to irritate him with my problem but I really going to break down le. I just need his console and hug. But he only told me that later go down to shop, ask and tally with them. Told me not to get stress up and frustrated so easy.

Went swimming again. Guess swimming pool is the only place when I can cry all I want, without anyone seeing.

I'm not emo just upset with myself. Why can't I be more stronger abit. Why I must keep on relying on ppl... why can I be more independant abit. I'm weak.

Now...I just need a place without any baby crying, dogs barking, without him, without anyone I know. I just wish to be alone. I just need peace.

I will never want to bug him with my problems anymore. I will never say things out anymore. I must learn to take all things by myself.

Thanks

Sher, Bing, Ting, Gerald, Yuan and Dee......

Hmm.. Thanks for all the cares and efforts you guys put in. Really appreciate them.

Heard from GT that this coming friday gathering is arranged specially for me, cos of my recent emo entries.

Well, my last few entries were abit hmm. emo -.-" but i'm ok. No need to worry abt me, I perfectly fine and I do not have depression also. Lols.

Just that, really feeling abit stress. But its natural for one to behave like this, especially I have to handle both my 3 dogs and Kayden. So... its normal la.

This friday gathering... whether it's for me, or just normal gathering, I'm looking forward to it. Miss u guys alot alot!

Missing him

Here alone on bed...

Feel xin fu with my 3 dogs beside me...

But feel upset without hubby beside...

Wonder wat he doing now? Tired or not.

Sigh...

Peaceful mind

Peaceful mind when under water... u can hear nothing, think nothing.

Fell in love with swimming. Swim daily non stop for 45 mins. My skin tone's getting darker liao. Sigh. I wanna be "fair lady" but i can't stop swimming.

Swimming is the only place when I'm free from stress, thoughts, problems etc. Everything seems so peaceful underwater. How I wish i can live underwater just like those fishes.

Water maybe nice, beautiful, peaceful but it kills. Recently there's an accident over at Little Guilin. Heard from my mother in law, that a 40 plus indian lady fell into Little Guilin and drown. Heard from my mummy, even u swim very well, you can get drown inside too. Scary =/

Anyway had my 2nd driving lesson today, different vehicle, different instructor. This instructor is much more better than the previous one lor. Got scolded a few times but i learned alot.

He told me that alot of ppl complained about my previous instructor. Lazy, bad temper, impatience. Only know how to bring ppl to the road circuit and practice there. Never really teach you how to drive on road, control steering, keep telling u to agar agar. So suay to have him as my first instructor. Pray hard that my this coming thursday lesson's instructor is not him.

Planned to have a steamboat gathering this coming friday with sher, bing, gt, ting, yuan and dee. But not confirm yet i think. Eh... confirm or not i also dono. Lols. Sher, yuan, dee, bing confirmed, but not sure GT and ting joining us anot. Maybe steamboat confirm, but the mahjong session after steamboat not confirm. Cos without GT and Ting, we can't mahjong. Lol. I miss the sound of the mahjong tiles and this time, I am not going to be suay liao.

I haven't watch "10 promise to my dog" yet. Sigh... Anyone want to watch this show also? Think film going down soon. Haiz. Maybe wait for dvd / vcd out then watch bah.

Meeting dearest fuzi tomorrow for shopping and dinner. Meeting alice for dinner too. Think hubbie can't join us. Think he will have to standby for meetings tomorrow. Sigh.

Why is hubbie so busy? Sigh =(

Why am i grumbling? Haiz. He need to work! SLAP! Be more understanding abit la!!!

Empty, fear

Felt empty recently.

Too much free time, nothing to do.

Been thinking too much, not used to current life.

Old health problem's back haunting me again.

I don't want to be like the past.

A Day without XP and Kayden

Watched Hellboy today with Dellas, Lai and Ken. It's a very nice show. I like the "tooth fairy", its dam cute!

Before that, k-ed at MS kbox, their today bento lunch don't really taste good. My voice getting alittle bit better than last time liao but still quite jia lat. Still cannot sing Ah Mei "Ji De". Sigh.

Had Sakae Sushi for dinner, dono why, recently craving for Japanese food especially salmon. Had 3 plates for salmon for dinner just now only. Though not really full but contented! Yummy!

After dinner, went straight back to my mum place to pick Kayden up and cabbed home.

Recently XP's very busy with his work. Went out in the morning, come back next morning 5am plus. He hardly have enough slp. Only slept for few hours and need to get back to work, meetings etc. His uclers problem back again. Sigh. Worried. =/

I'm am diet now but yet i just ate 8 pcs of chocolate cookies! ROAR!!!

Dreams Vs Reality

What are dreams?

Will the things in the dreams eventually come true in reality?

What usually appear in dreams?? Is it....

Thing or person which you always think of in reality?

Or something which you never want to think or recall but still kept deep inside your heart?

Bad memories which hurt you badly?

What does it means when you continuously dream of the same thing or person for a few nights?

I'm confused with dream and reality. I dono what I am thinking anymore.

I dono how to differentiate feelings in dreams and in real anymore.

I'm frightened to fall aslp nowadays, fear of dreams. I dowan them to affect my feelings in reality. I dowan them to affect my thoughts. I dowan them to affect everything.

Becos of dreams I start comparing things. I start to think alot. I hate such feelings.

How can I stop dreaming... Haiz.

Btw, swimming can really relax one's mind. I feel so relax after swim. Those who are facing stress or having problems, go try it out. If you dono hw to swim, just soak yourself in the pool.

Driving lesson is a nightmare

Man! I nearly cried out during my first ever driving lesson lesson. :'(

Either the instructor is impatient or I am too stupid and clumsy.

First, he took me to a lorry carpark beside Bt Batok Nature park to learn how to control the car.

He asked me learn to step on the accelerator pedal and brake pedal, and he asked me to practice that for 5 mins alone.

Then he asked me to practice on the step when making right and left turn, left right signals, rear mirror, side mirror, blind spot....

Then taught me the steering wheel, correct way to hold and steer... practiced for 20 times. Then asked me to try driving around the carpark, straight and left turn.

Then off we go to the main road! =/

Palms started sweating, both arms became very stiff.

While driving on road, he helped me with the control of steering wheel. Then when during turn, he helped me out also, making me very confused on where my hands shld hold to. He kept scold me for crossing my arms for too long. I know I should cross them but I just simply lost control of them. And with his arm over at the steering making more difficult to move my hands ard.

All along my mandarin sucks, and most of the times I can't understand wad he is toking. Even when turning left and right, he say "左" but i suddenly forgot that 左 is left then I signal right. Zzz Tio scold again. I know how to differentiate left and right, but not 左 and 右.

He asked me to drive from Bt Batok nature park back to bbdc area then to the circuit at the sungei tengah. He taught me reversing, simple parking, "S" road. Its all so difficult. Haiz.

His first lesson make me abit phobia with driving. Sigh. My next lesson's on next tuesday and thursday. Sigh again!

Random entry

Its been a few days since I last updated. Was busy with Kayden and preparing for last monday final theory test. Lols

Finally passed my FTT. There is one website which I highly recommend. Cos the first FTT i sat, I focused on the FT book and try to memorise as much as I can, but I failed. Actually cant really blame the book la, cos I did not have time for revision that why failed the test. But for the 2nd one, I did not touch tat book at all. All I did was to do the questions on this website, http://www.singaporetests.com.sg/. The questions there are 90% similar to wad u will be tested.

I practiced on the questions for a few days just before my FTT and i passed. Lols. So if u guys don't really like to 背死书, u can try this website. Available for Basic Theory too.

I will be taking my first ever driving lesson this afternoon. So nervous and scared. Its gonna be the first time I will be driving a car.

I've chosen the auto instead of the manual one.. Why? Cos I have no confidence at all in handling a manual car and also becos of those bad experiences from hubbie. Lols. I confirm will panic and cok things up during my Traffic Police Test. Already booked for my TP, which will be on the 28th Oct. 3 months more to go. Gd luck to myself!

Meeting up with Dellas, Lai and Ken for movie this coming weekend. Gonna watch "10 Promise to a dog" I scared that I will cry during the movie. =/

Shenzhen / Hong kong trip this month end. Air tickets and hotel booked already. 25-28 July. Now pending for the visa application. So troublesome.

Planning for a star cruise trip with Yuan and dee. Actually wanted to go genting instead, but heard that nowadays its not really safe going there, so change to cruise trip instead since XP never been to one before. I went twice, Leo and Virgo. Nothing much to enjoy except for the casino and the buffet food there. One wil sure put on alot of weight after the trip. Cos there will be foc international buffet for breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner and supper. Yummy! Talking about the food there, begin to drool liao. Lols

Not sure when most likely maybe in august or september. Trying to get more ppl to join. So anyone interested? Have yet to check the rates yet, most likely will be 300 plus or 400 plus bucks per person if 4 peeps sharing in one cabin. Wana go casino, my hands are itchy liao. Haha

Had a hard time writting this entry. Halfway thru, had to stop alot of times, due to incoming calls and of cos Kayden's crying. This boy been quite naughty nowadays. Don't really like to sleep during the day, always want ppl to carry him walk around and talk to him. And he get easily hungry, usually milk him every 3 hrs but he wil start to cry for milk every 2 1/2 hrs, sometimes earlier. Haiz.

How I wish he can grow up fast fast. Lol.

Club, CLub, Club

Lol. Clubbed for both friday and yesterday.

Friday, went to meet up with two of my best buddies, Cat and Peiling. Met Cat and her bf first at Taka and went shopping while waiting for Pei for dinner and she reached at about 7 plus to 8. She's late for almost half hr. Roar!

Dinner-ed at Paragon's My Mum Cuisine, the food quite nice, especially the curry fish head. Yummy! But the beef hor fun which Cat ordered taste doesn't really good - as feedbacked by Cat.

After dinner, went down to Fullerton One to find a place for drink but due to the construction work at the river bay, alot of pubs had been closed. Zzz. Wasted parking entry and it's DAM FKING EXPENSIVE. Parked less than 15 mins, $5 deducted from cashcard! CBD AREA!! FCUK!

Then went down to a bar at CHIJMES. Pissed off cos their services very slow. So change place again. Lols

Lastly, we settled down at 97 (at orchard plaza). Initially wanted to go there cos heard that one of my friend's band "Lucify" is performing there, but went down then realised they left quite sometimes ago. Sigh. Anyway we continued to stay there, cos firstly the liquor is cheap ($138 for chivas) and secondly, the live band performing that night is not bad also and thirdly we were lazy to change another place again.

On saturday which was yesterday, met up with Ting, Bing Yuan, Dee for dinner. Dinner-ed at Sakae Sushi but before that had ice cream at Hagen-Daz (dono if spelling correct anot, spelled by XP de, lol). Their ice cream is EX! Most expensive ice cream i ever eaten. 2 ice cream and one milk shake, total bill 50 plus bucks. OmFg! 1st and last time for Hagen.

After dinner, we went down to Power House and met up with Crystal and her bf. Well, this is my first time to Power Hse. Hmm.. not bad place and music not bad too and got "CLOWNS" to see also. Entertaining leh. Got bunny, got monkey and got "大奶妈" ROFL.

Heard from XP that d.f is more fun, I wana go DragonFly!!

Looking forward to the next clubbing session! XP cannot go with us, cos he always felt slpy and bored. He only know how to enjoy Indian music and songs sang by PIG. Oink oink oink. Lols

1st Yr Anniversary

Hubbie! Happy First Yr Anniversary!!

Thank you for everything and I love you!!

Kayden's Full Month Celebration

Firstly, thanks to all my friends, cousins, aunties who had attended. And also thanks to Ting, GT and Bing for the overnight mahjong. Lols. It was really an unforgetable night.

My mum told me, "OMG how come you got so many maple friends?!" LOLS

First night, XP's friends occupied the whole of the living room and second night was our maple friends. Relatives all hanged around in the bedroom or studyroom.

The below photos mostly was taken on the first day of celebration, before the guests arrived. I was too busy entertaining the guests till I forgotten about taking photos. Sigh...

Below photos were taken by my mummy on the seond day. I forgot to take photos again. Lols

My Cousins

(Left to right, YuLei, XinYu, WanQing, Aaron)

(Left to Right) Sis, Aaron, Mummy, XinYu, WanQing, YuLei

My ex-neighbours...


That's all for the pics. Sad! I wish I had remembered to take photos of those guests who came. Haiz..

Ting, Kira, Yuan, Bing... I know u guys got take some photos.. Mind to contribute some?? Lols